“Some people turn sad awfully young. No special reason, it seems, but they seem almost to be born that way. They bruise easier, tire faster, cry quicker, remember longer and, as I say, get sadder younger than anyone else in the world.”—
for the Nth time in the past like 2 months. no, more than 2 months. i have been let down by a person i love. let down in a sense of falling for the mask of happiness i wear. sshit. seriously. him of all people… thinks i am happy without a care in this world. he of all people thinks that i am Okay.
he thinks that i don’t know what i do. he thinks that i don’t know what i say.
when truth be told, i know what i said to make him mad. he is so mean to think that i am dumb enough and have no clue. wow… now i remember what made me stay away from being in a serious relationship for a while now..
he of all people want to walk away when he was the one person i trusted to keep holding on. i guess it was my fault? mistreating him that way. he is so much nicer than the girl i used to call my bestfriend. and recently i made this huge mistake of mistreating him… i took for granted what i had…
i guess i really shouldn’t be attached to anyone. starting now.
BE THE STONE HEARTED BITCH. i wonder if he’ll feel that through the fucking mask.
or will i still be little miss happy -go-fucking-lucky-i-could-just-die.